when the clouds are gone

we cant always have the things that we want in this life. sometimes no matter how hard we try, we cant just have everything we want in life. we try and try and try but we still dont get the things that we really want. it is disappointing. sometimes it is too disappointing. we stop trying but continue hoping. because somehow we believe that if we had try our best but it is still not enough, there is always hope. so we hope. we pray and hope. hoping and praying that one day we have the strength to try harder and to do better and hopefully we get the things we want in life.

i see things that i like. but that does not mean i want it. i just like it but i dont want it. because i know i will get bored. when i m bored, i will throw it away. so, i keep coming back. i look and stare at the thing that i like. i enjoy the thing that i like from far. i dont wanna have it but i just love looking at it. it makes me happy by just looking at it. it is enough. i am happy just to look at it.

i dont always want the thing that i like. call me stupid. this is just me.

so i told him that i like him but i dont want him. he sighed. he said he understood. he said, one day when the clouds are gone, he will still be standing at the same place looking directly at me, saying the same thing he told me last night.

i smiled. i m still smiling. one day. when the clouds are gone, there will be sun. i hope he will be the sun. when the clouds are gone, i hope i can still find him.