‘if’ is the word for things that could never happen

if my life were a mix tape, it will contain:

1. nitrus – hujung dunia
2. the hives – tick tick boom
3. jason mraz – life is wonderful
4. stereophonics – have a nice day
5. reza salleh – for her
6. nitrus – kamu
7. sinead o connor – nothing compares to u
8. eric clapton – wonderful tonight
9. a fine frenzy – almost lover
10. yuna – greek goddess
11. estranged – itu kamu
12. incubus – drive
13. jack johnson – upside down
14. the knack – my sharona
15. the ramones – rock and roll high school
16. the strokes – 12:51
17. laluna – bahagia tanpamu
18. the beatles – i wanna hold ur hand
19. beach boys – kokomo
20. jewel – foolish games

i just wanna laugh

facebook always have funny applications. they have ‘which animal are you’ application, ’send a cupcake’ application, ‘which rockstar u should date’ application, ‘which tv character are you’ application and a while lot more weird and not make sense applications. but still we all LOVE facebook.

my friend send me a request for ‘what does ur bday means’ application.
here’s what my bday means:
“You are very optimistic and that’s why you always enjoy life. You are gifted in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You’ll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out. Your Love, Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not that you really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can’t really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkably charming and romantic.”

analysis:
You are very optimistic and that’s why you always enjoy life
–true. i m very optimistic (at least i think i m)
–do i always enjoy life? well, u u get to live only once right? so make the best out of it.

You are gifted in entertaining others
–not true
–i m not a clown or a performer. i cant even make jokes!
–maybe i should attend clown school.
–this prove that i have been taking the course in college. damn it!

Your friends love and trust you
–yer ker?

You’ll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out
–again. yer ker?
–i doubt this statement.

Your Love, Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not that you really like that person
–not true.
–i have never fall in love. i like someone but never love someone. sometimes, i really like that someone.

You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can’t really get over your love ones from past
–hmmm..again i doubt this statement
–sweet couple? hallo? not a celebrity here.
–i get over guys quite easily. but there is a someone that i recently let go.

Your partner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkably charming and romantic
–NOT TRUE.
–if they are crazy about me, there will never be a break up right?
–is it me or is it them?

now. i doubt this stupid statement. i doubt this ‘what ur bday means’ crap. one should never read horoscope and one should never believe all these craps.

and fortune tellers lie too. they are human like us who need to make extra money. and they are a bunch of scammers who scam other people just like the ’skim cepat kaya’.

make it yours

take it.
take care of it. love it. guard it.
dont hurt it. kiss it. cuddle it.
as it is my one and only.
as it is my precious.
so u have to take it.
i give it to u. trust it.
love it. take care of it. guard it.
as it is ur own.
as it is ur life.
take it. love it. guard it.

some people should just shut up

some people are just jealous. others have a lot of time to kill.

some people think their life are so miserable that they have to make others miserable to.

some people are just jealous about others so they brag about how great their life is. truth is we all know u have a lame life. we all know ur life is shittier than ours.

some people are so just with others’ life, so they make up stories so that their life will sound as cool as others. they even make up an imaginary lifestyle so that others will think that they are cool.

some people just hates other people. they hate ‘cool’ people so they call them posers. but we all know deep down inside, they want to be apart of the ‘cool’ group.

some people bitch about other people’s life. they bitch too much about it. they even annoyed other people because they bitch too much about it. in the end, they become the people they bitch about.

some people bitch about their own friends because they think their life is better than their friends’ life. they even make up a competition about who earn more, who marry first and who earn first million. but they keep on being friends with each other because they have no other friends. because no one else can stand them other than their own friends. because they are finding a hard time trying to find a new friend. they find it hard to make new friends because they are inferior to their new friends.

some people should just shut up. some people pisses me off. so just shut up.

dry the tears falling down the eyes

i hate sadness.
i hate all things that can make a human sad.
i hate everything that lead to sadness.
because sadness is too negative.
because every human being deserve happiness.

how can we appreciate happiness if we never feel the pain of being sad?
but sadness is too sad. it is the saddest of sad.
it breaks a person. it makes a person.
i believe sadness teaches a person. make the person who he is today.

sadness are just too gloomy.
it turns a bright sky dark.
it turns colorful rainbow to grey.
sadness is just too depressing.
when sadness happens, depression happens.
it breaks a person.

i want throw away this sadness. i never want to see it again.
i want to paint life with the color of the rainbows.
i want to wake up in mr wonka’s chocolate factory.
wouldnt it be nice? having all things colorful and sweet.
everything happy. full of happy songs.
wouldnt it be nice if life is a never ending fairy tale?
it would be nice.

but god created sadness anyway.
so that human appreciates n be grateful.
so that human learn n understand.
so that human dont take things for granted.

sadness gives the color pink, pink.
sadness gives happiness meaning.

break it, tear it and destroy it.

my life has never been the same.
the day it comes. it has never been the same.
then it goes.
my life has never been the same.
it has taught me the lessons of life.
one can never be the same when it comes into your life.
it is fair. it is funny. it is hurt. it is beautiful.
it will make u addicted. it will make u want more.
it is warm and comforting.
i want it back. i want it to come back. i want it to never leave me.
i want to feel it again.

why?

there are times i ask myself why
why me?
why this life?
why this body?
why this look?
why this world?
why him?

there are times i wonder.
if my life were different
how would it be?
would i still be me?
would i still have the things i haf now?
would people treat me the same way?
who will i be?
how will i be?

i look at people’s life.
i want their life.
there are times i sat alone in the cafe
n look at people passing by
i wonder how their lives are
are they happy?
are they like me?

its not fair.
i deserve something more.
but i m not complaining.
i m just imagining.

why always this feelings

sometimes i feel like slapping him in the face.
i wanna slap him so hard that he’ll wake up.
sometimes i wanna tell him how i feel inside.
how much it ache me see him wif someone else.
someone else that is wrong for him.
he complaints everytime she didnt pay attention.
he complaints everytime she didnt pick up his calls.
but he keeps running back to her.

i wanna wake him.
make him look. make him see.
here i m standing in front of him.
telling him she is not for him.
telling him i m here for him.
telling him i care.

he always give me that smile.
he pisses me off but when he gives me that smile.
it changes everything. that one smile.
that i often miss at night.
that laugh that i hear everytime i m alone.
that face that i imagine when we talk on the phone.

i wanna write him a song
the melody is not right
like he and her will never be right.
like us chasing something we can never have.
me chasing him chasing her.

give me that smile and that laugh.
tell me that joke.
for me to wipe away the tears.
for me to mend my own broken heart.
for me to laugh whenever u r not around.

i see him. everyday, every night.
in my dreams i see him.
i will always be the girl that makes him laugh
never the one to make him whole.

run to the emergency exit

cute drummer : babe, come watch me play next week.
me : owh. ok.
cute drummer : u said that everytime.
me : owhh~
cute drummer : datang la. this time janji i tak bw my girlfriend.

lelaki nih kadang-kadang memang macam sial.
tapi dier sgt cute.
everytime dier main drum. dier super cute.

things that rock my world

(in no particular order)

~ahmad shazli
~james mcavoy
~facebook
~books
~beautifully captured photos
~reza salleh’s music (and voice)
~blogs
~the great spy experiment
~toilet papers
~noodles
~GSC’s pop corn
~poetries
~penang
~wikipedia
~italliannies pastas
~the beatles’ i wanna hold your hand
~mali’s char kuey teow
~SUVs
~movie marathon-ing